apatheia: (r u fukkin kiddin me m8)
2B 【YoRHa No.2 Type B】 ([personal profile] apatheia) wrote2020-01-01 12:59 am
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[personal profile] deem 2017-11-15 06:02 am (UTC)(link)
[In the end, his comparison only gets them so far. At least she seems to understand how he can forgive her, but 9S isn't sure how to help her forgive herself. He's wrestled with guilt and shame before, it's just not the same thing. What 2B has lived with goes deeper than that, and, he thinks, she's a far gentler person than he is to begin with.

It seems dangerous to decide that circumstances and the eventual logic virus infection account for all of his ruthless actions. 9S isn't sure he would do any different if faced with the same situation or not. What was there to do with one's grief, when all seemed lost?

But that was then, and this is now. His focus might wander, but he centers it right back on 2B, watching her face in profile from where he sits]


Maybe...when you're ready to, you should try.

[With the past weighing her down, 9S can't imagine that she would ever truly be happy. And she deserves to be, after all that she has been through. He wants that more than anything in this world or any other. Well, that, and to remain by her side. What more could he truly ask for?

Well...aside from knowing what to do with feelings, but that's a subject he'll revisit another time]


There are things you can do here. Positive things. Ones we didn't get a shot at, before.
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[personal profile] deem 2017-11-19 09:52 pm (UTC)(link)
[9S can do little better than sit there numbly, aware that he wasn't able to do anything to relieve the new burden he has just placed on her. He's entirely too still at first, having to remind himself after a collection of long moments has been and gone that he needs to respond to her, in some way. He should, although no words come to mind.

It feels to him that he's broken something he's unable to repair no matter how dearly he wants to. The last thing he wanted to do was hurt 2B with the truth, and it's clear to him that he has done just that. No matter what he says, it seems to only make matters worse.

Did forgiveness only hurt her even more?

For the time being, he's too afraid of causing more and worse to argue for any alternative. The way he picks himself up from his seat on the sand is a clumsy thing, entirely too stiff for an undamaged unit, and yet he's unable to help that. If she needs time, it means he ought to go, right? Before he makes something even worse]


I— [Still lack for a good response] ...Sorry, 2B.

[It would have been better to let her believe he didn't remember any of it. His shoulders sag under the weight of that awareness as he makes his leave]