That being said... I know I don't remember every word of it, but I'm glad we got the chance to talk more. Regardless of what was in that vial, it would have made me happy no matter what the circumstances.
[Despite all the static and the hazy state of her mind, being what she is, she was still able to recall everything that happened with near perfect clarity. It made her questions some of her actions, sure, but she didn't forget any of them. There's... something a little sad to her, that Jude doesn't remember all of it. She's a little too used to that kind of thing, after all.
But she also realizes that human memory would work very differently from her own, and it probably shouldn't be a surprise that whatever was in the vial had such an effect on people. It would be silly to be upset about this when she understands that.]
I see. I didn't have a problem with you falling asleep on me, although I'm surprised you think I was comfortable. [Would sleeping on a person really feel that comfortable?? The position doesn't seem ideal...] But I'm glad we had the chance to talk more, too. I enjoy speaking with you.
[ jude just sort of squints at her, brows knit in concern. he's pretty good at reading people — even androids with goggles to hide their expression. something just feels a little Off, and jude isn't the type to ignore those emotional cues, even if he turns out to be worrying for nothing. ]
[Wow it's a good thing Jude didn't notice anything off last night. She probably wouldn't have been able to hide it. It's a little surprising to her that he's noticed anything though; 9S is almost unfortunately good at seeing through her, but she figured his nature as a top of the line Scanner played a good part in that. She already knows she's not really that good at acting, but maybe she's not as good at controlling her expressions as she thought...]
I'm fine. [Her tone is calm and even, just as it always is. She thinks she's fine, after all. Jude not remembering everything that happened is a little saddening, but she doesn't think it's anything worth bringing up.] Why do you ask?
[Although she doesn't readily say she'd be happy to do so either. There's no question that Jude's sharp, and she truly enjoys speaking with him, but if they talked about the sort of things they talked about last night, she's not sure how much she'd end up unintentionally giving away.
Sure, there's no reason to have to hide anything anymore. She really would like to be more honest, more open. But if she's being honest with herself at least, there are some things she's not ready to be honest about right now. Maybe not ever.]
[Maybe she wouldn't necessarily call it rambling... But hearing what he thinks is honestly interesting to her. For one, it's insightful as a look into a how a human would view things, but more than that, it's opportunity to see how Jude views things. As his friend, that's definitely important to her.]
[She almost wants to say that she'll open up (or more like try to open up) if he wants her to, but she's pretty sure he wouldn't be satisfied with an answer like that...
She thinks she'd like to try to, if nothing else, and that has to count for something, right? She'd always wished she could back in her world. It was too late for her to try and talk more with 6O or the Commander or Anemone. Now that she actually has the chance to, wouldn't it be strange not at at least try?]
... It was nice, yeah. [In its own way. She didn't really like talking about why emotions being prohibited would be better, but there were a lot of things she didn't mind talking about, even liked talking about.] So I'd like to talk like that again. Really.
Then... that makes me happier than words can describe.
[ jude's smile is soft, warm; it reaches his eyes, entirely genuine. he has a lot of different shades of smiles, but this smile is rarer. it's a smile 9s has likened to sunshine. ]
I'm really glad we met, 2B. I can't stress that enough. Everything about you fascinates me, but it's more than that.
[9S hadn't been wrong in that description. There's something almost unbearably warm in his expression, she's not sure what she could've done for him to smile like this. It practically feels like a gift, just being able to see it. She knows without a doubt that it's a smile she'll never forget.]
What is it then? If you don't mind my asking. [She doesn't want to step out of bounds here, but it's truly difficult for her to understand how and why he feels the way he does.]
[ jude hums, thoughtful, mulling over his words before he speaks. this is important. ]
Your plain fascination with both us humans and the world around you. Your sincerity. Your gentleness. Your kindness. Your strength, both inside and out. How much you care about all the little things.
And... there's this warmth about you. I can't quite place what it is, but it's there. This comforting presence.
[ he has a feeling 2b, and perhaps certain others, sees herself as a colder person, but jude sees the opposite. ]
I feel like I might have said some of these things before... but I'll say them as many times as I need to. They bear repeating. You even cared when I told you how much sleep I getting. It's... it's nice, to be looked out for. To be around someone who just makes you feel safe.
[ jude is a rather interesting shade of red. did he say too much? is he the one who stepped out of bounds? ]
[She'd probably feel odd hearing that a human admires her regardless, but coming from someone as kind as Jude, she feels... guilty. She doesn't deserve his admiration, not when she's done what she's done. Sure, she has no intention of sharing her past or repeating any of those events, yet knowing what she's done, she thinks she's the last person to deserve something like admiration from anyone, let alone Jude.
For the first time, she seriously considers whether or not keeping what happened so tightly under wraps might be deceiving. She doesn't think it's necessary for anyone to know when she knows she'd never hurt 9S again, but she's also sure that Jude wouldn't say that if he knew the truth. Humans shouldn't admire androids when they're just trying to emulate them, let alone an android whose duty was to kill their partner over and over again.
Despite all the praise, and through no fault of his, his feelings hurt her.]
... I don't deserve your admiration. [Her tone is calm and even as always, the same as what's visible of her expression. Still, the words alone already say a lot.]
[ jude can immediately tell something is wrong. he might not be able to see it in her eyes or hear it in her voice, but... her response alone, her blank expression — it speaks volumes. ]
Did I... Did I say something wrong?
[ he sounds regretful. that's the first thing that comes to mind. the last thing jude wanted to do was hurt her. he wanted to make her smile. if it were up to him, 2b and 9s would always be smiling. ]
[Her response comes immediately, firm but reassuring. It's not Jude's fault that his words had such an effect on her. The last thing she should be doing, as both an android and his friend, is causing him undue worry with something she sees as a personal problem.]
It's nothing. You don't need to worry about it. [Although she has a feeling that won't stop him from worrying about it... She wishes conversation came as naturally to her as it does with 9S, or as it did with 6O. She can't even think of another topic to transition to that could takes his mind off this.]
[She sighs, but it's fond rather than out of anything sad. He's right in that she knows better than that, and yet:]
And you know me well enough that I'd say that even while knowing that, right? [There's a hint of humor to her voice though, almost teasing.] You have nothing to apologize for, really. It's fine.
[It definitely isn't fine, but you'll never hear that from her!! She'll make use of her (un)healthy coping mechanisms for as long as possible.]
I don't mind if you stay, but I wouldn't want to keep you from anything. [a beat] Besides, I'm not sure I have anything to talk about that you'd find particularly interesting.
[He said he likes listening to her, but she really can't imagine that she makes for particularly good company. Someone like Jude could probably find any number of people with more to say, after all.]
[It's a good thing she and 9S would never want to split Jude's time between them tbh. What would Jude do if they both wanted to hang out but separately, what then!!]
... You really wouldn't get bored? [Surely he'd have more fun spending time with 9S or someone else who.... does more, honestly.]
[ the natural solution would be to make a jude sandwich and hang out with both of them at once. to be honest, he can't imagine much that would make him happier. ]
[It's probably a little sad how unsure she is about this. People have always said she could stand to loosen up a little, and she's never even doubted that. Circumstances just made that impossible for her, but even here, she doesn't really know how to do it.
Well.... Here goes, apparently........]
Let's take a walk then. [She likes checking up on the Palai when she can honestly, even if she never has much to say.
Although she'll keep in mind that she probably can't go around dashing and jumping between rooftops with Jude here...]
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[Despite all the static and the hazy state of her mind, being what she is, she was still able to recall everything that happened with near perfect clarity. It made her questions some of her actions, sure, but she didn't forget any of them. There's... something a little sad to her, that Jude doesn't remember all of it. She's a little too used to that kind of thing, after all.
But she also realizes that human memory would work very differently from her own, and it probably shouldn't be a surprise that whatever was in the vial had such an effect on people. It would be silly to be upset about this when she understands that.]
I see. I didn't have a problem with you falling asleep on me, although I'm surprised you think I was comfortable. [Would sleeping on a person really feel that comfortable?? The position doesn't seem ideal...] But I'm glad we had the chance to talk more, too. I enjoy speaking with you.
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[ jude just sort of squints at her, brows knit in concern. he's pretty good at reading people — even androids with goggles to hide their expression. something just feels a little Off, and jude isn't the type to ignore those emotional cues, even if he turns out to be worrying for nothing. ]
Are you sure you're alright?
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I'm fine. [Her tone is calm and even, just as it always is. She thinks she's fine, after all. Jude not remembering everything that happened is a little saddening, but she doesn't think it's anything worth bringing up.] Why do you ask?
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[ a brief pause. ]
You know... I'd like to have the chance to sit and talk like that again. Preferably when we're not inebriated this time.
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[Although she doesn't readily say she'd be happy to do so either. There's no question that Jude's sharp, and she truly enjoys speaking with him, but if they talked about the sort of things they talked about last night, she's not sure how much she'd end up unintentionally giving away.
Sure, there's no reason to have to hide anything anymore. She really would like to be more honest, more open. But if she's being honest with herself at least, there are some things she's not ready to be honest about right now. Maybe not ever.]
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[ his smile falters a bit, not disappearing but flickering into something more uncertain. ]
Who wants to be stuck listening to someone ramble on and on, right?
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[Maybe she wouldn't necessarily call it rambling... But hearing what he thinks is honestly interesting to her. For one, it's insightful as a look into a how a human would view things, but more than that, it's opportunity to see how Jude views things. As his friend, that's definitely important to her.]
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The feeling is mutual. It's fuzzy and all, but I do know that hearing you open up was... it was nice.
[ and so was seeing her expression, those soft blue eyes of hers, but he'll keep that part to himself. ]
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She thinks she'd like to try to, if nothing else, and that has to count for something, right? She'd always wished she could back in her world. It was too late for her to try and talk more with 6O or the Commander or Anemone. Now that she actually has the chance to, wouldn't it be strange not at at least try?]
... It was nice, yeah. [In its own way. She didn't really like talking about why emotions being prohibited would be better, but there were a lot of things she didn't mind talking about, even liked talking about.] So I'd like to talk like that again. Really.
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[ jude's smile is soft, warm; it reaches his eyes, entirely genuine. he has a lot of different shades of smiles, but this smile is rarer. it's a smile 9s has likened to sunshine. ]
I'm really glad we met, 2B. I can't stress that enough. Everything about you fascinates me, but it's more than that.
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What is it then? If you don't mind my asking. [She doesn't want to step out of bounds here, but it's truly difficult for her to understand how and why he feels the way he does.]
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[ jude hums, thoughtful, mulling over his words before he speaks. this is important. ]
Your plain fascination with both us humans and the world around you. Your sincerity. Your gentleness. Your kindness. Your strength, both inside and out. How much you care about all the little things.
And... there's this warmth about you. I can't quite place what it is, but it's there. This comforting presence.
[ he has a feeling 2b, and perhaps certain others, sees herself as a colder person, but jude sees the opposite. ]
I feel like I might have said some of these things before... but I'll say them as many times as I need to. They bear repeating. You even cared when I told you how much sleep I getting. It's... it's nice, to be looked out for. To be around someone who just makes you feel safe.
[ jude is a rather interesting shade of red. did he say too much? is he the one who stepped out of bounds? ]
I... I admire you.
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For the first time, she seriously considers whether or not keeping what happened so tightly under wraps might be deceiving. She doesn't think it's necessary for anyone to know when she knows she'd never hurt 9S again, but she's also sure that Jude wouldn't say that if he knew the truth. Humans shouldn't admire androids when they're just trying to emulate them, let alone an android whose duty was to kill their partner over and over again.
Despite all the praise, and through no fault of his, his feelings hurt her.]
... I don't deserve your admiration. [Her tone is calm and even as always, the same as what's visible of her expression. Still, the words alone already say a lot.]
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[ jude can immediately tell something is wrong. he might not be able to see it in her eyes or hear it in her voice, but... her response alone, her blank expression — it speaks volumes. ]
Did I... Did I say something wrong?
[ he sounds regretful. that's the first thing that comes to mind. the last thing jude wanted to do was hurt her. he wanted to make her smile. if it were up to him, 2b and 9s would always be smiling. ]
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[Her response comes immediately, firm but reassuring. It's not Jude's fault that his words had such an effect on her. The last thing she should be doing, as both an android and his friend, is causing him undue worry with something she sees as a personal problem.]
It's nothing. You don't need to worry about it. [Although she has a feeling that won't stop him from worrying about it... She wishes conversation came as naturally to her as it does with 9S, or as it did with 6O. She can't even think of another topic to transition to that could takes his mind off this.]
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[ his tone is light. soothing. ]
I won't force you to tell me what's wrong, but whatever it is, whatever I said... I'm sorry.
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And you know me well enough that I'd say that even while knowing that, right? [There's a hint of humor to her voice though, almost teasing.] You have nothing to apologize for, really. It's fine.
[It definitely isn't fine, but you'll never hear that from her!! She'll make use of her (un)healthy coping mechanisms for as long as possible.]
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... Well, you've got me there.
[ jude looks up at the sky, clearly thinking over his next words. he doesn't want to say the wrong thing again, whatever it was. ]
Do you... do you want to be alone? I can leave. It's alright.
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[He said he likes listening to her, but she really can't imagine that she makes for particularly good company. Someone like Jude could probably find any number of people with more to say, after all.]
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[ and he means it. ]
Besides, you're always interesting. We don't even have to talk. I can just... keep you company?
[ he'd be fine with that. just sitting by her side. ]
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... You really wouldn't get bored? [Surely he'd have more fun spending time with 9S or someone else who.... does more, honestly.]
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Nope!
[ spoken without hesitation. none whatsoever. ]
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Well.... Here goes, apparently........]
Let's take a walk then. [She likes checking up on the Palai when she can honestly, even if she never has much to say.
Although she'll keep in mind that she probably can't go around dashing and jumping between rooftops with Jude here...]
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Sounds good to me.
[ and off they go, jude standing closer to 2b's side than what is strictly necessary. ]