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2B 【YoRHa No.2 Type B】 ([personal profile] apatheia) wrote2020-01-01 12:59 am
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[personal profile] talim 2017-11-18 06:50 am (UTC)(link)
[ here goes nothing. rip jude mathis. he's so nervous his palms are sweating, and he hates the fact that he's nervous around 2b. that isn't right. that isn't how things are supposed to be.

he very gently knocks on her bedroom door. he doesn't know how to start, so he doesn't say anything at all, simply waiting for her to answer. ]
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[personal profile] talim 2017-11-19 06:47 am (UTC)(link)
I wanted to... ah...

[ he pauses to twiddle with his thumbs. what is he, a nervous teenager? that's exactly what he is, actually. ]

Can we talk, 2B? I know you didn't want to see me again— but there are some things I'd like to say to you. I know it's a selfish request, but I hope you'll forgive that.

... And I'm not angry anymore, if that's what you're thinking. I just needed time.
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[personal profile] talim 2017-11-19 07:59 am (UTC)(link)
[ her sad words pierce his chest, make jude's lips curve into a sympathetic frown. she doesn't deserve to beat herself up like this. nobody does. now that jude knows the details, the why, he can't find it in him to hold a shred of anger anymore, but he doesn't have to when that anger is festering inside her and directed at none other than herself. ]

No. I never... I never planned on not seeing you again, 2B. You decided that.

Can I come in and sit down?
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[personal profile] talim 2017-11-19 02:24 pm (UTC)(link)
[ jude isn't surprised by the sparse furnishing; 9s' room is similar, after all. he didn't expect hers to be different.

he takes a seat on the couch and pats the space next to him, gesturing for her to come on over. ]


So...

[ a deep breath. ]

There are certain things about YoRHa that I don't think I'll ever understand, nor approve of, but... the biggest thing I didn't understand was that what happened between you and 9S wasn't your fault. I didn't understand that, if you could, you'd give anything to protect him. I didn't understand any of it.

[ jude rubs at the nape of his neck, unable to meet 2b's gaze even through the goggles. ]

And because I didn't understand, I lashed out.

9S is... important to me. And you're important to me, too, 2B. That's why it hurt so much. Because I admire you. I respect you. That hasn't changed. That won't change. But at the time... I thought it might.

And I'm sorry. I was naive.
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[personal profile] talim 2017-11-21 02:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[ jude can hear her fists clenching, the rough squeak of leather, and he glances down at them and then back up to her face.

he keeps his voice carefully level when he speaks, just a single sentence in response. ]


Do you want be to be angry with you?
Edited 2017-11-21 14:23 (UTC)
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*want me to be...

[personal profile] talim 2017-11-22 12:16 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm not going to apologize for not being willing to grant that request.
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[personal profile] talim 2017-11-27 04:46 am (UTC)(link)
... I know things might not be able to go back to the way they used to be; I know life isn't that simple. But above all, we're friends, aren't we? At least tell me that.
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[personal profile] talim 2017-11-27 11:49 am (UTC)(link)
I do.

[ jude breathes out the biggest sigh of relief possible. ]

I really, really do.

[ he wants a lot of things. he wants 2b to stop hurting. but not everything can be fixed with words. maybe she just needs more time. ]
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[personal profile] talim 2017-11-27 10:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[ jude wants to hug her. he almost does, until he remembers himself and what boundaries are. ]

There's no other 2B I'd rather be stuck with.

[ jude's smile is soft, both sincere and fond. ]