[For a moment, she only stares at the spot he patted. In all honesty, she thinks she'd be more comfortable standing, but eventually she takes the seat, albeit sitting so there's a polite and respectful distance between them.
She listens to everything he says silently, taking it all in. Hearing his apology to her of all people.
And it's frustrating. Her hand balls the fabric of her skirt in her lap, but the more she tries to let it sink in, the more it bothers her. It sounds silly and illogical no matter how she looks at it, to be mad at the fact that Jude isn't mad at her anymore, but that's what this is, isn't it? She wants him to be mad at her. To resent her for what she did. Yet if her response to 9S' forgiveness was any indication, how her lack of understanding only upset him, she can only imagine that it'd be the same with Jude.
She's so tired of upsetting the people she cares about. But she can't understand why they continue to offer forgiveness when she doesn't deserve it.]
... You don't have to apologize. No, you have nothing to apologize for. [She never expected him to understand their situation. It doesn't matter if he does or doesn't. Even if it's true that she'd give anything to protect 9S (never mind that she did), it doesn't change what she did. Instead, all she can do is ball her hand tighter.] But you should understand now why I don't deserve your admiration.
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She listens to everything he says silently, taking it all in. Hearing his apology to her of all people.
And it's frustrating. Her hand balls the fabric of her skirt in her lap, but the more she tries to let it sink in, the more it bothers her. It sounds silly and illogical no matter how she looks at it, to be mad at the fact that Jude isn't mad at her anymore, but that's what this is, isn't it? She wants him to be mad at her. To resent her for what she did. Yet if her response to 9S' forgiveness was any indication, how her lack of understanding only upset him, she can only imagine that it'd be the same with Jude.
She's so tired of upsetting the people she cares about. But she can't understand why they continue to offer forgiveness when she doesn't deserve it.]
... You don't have to apologize. No, you have nothing to apologize for. [She never expected him to understand their situation. It doesn't matter if he does or doesn't. Even if it's true that she'd give anything to protect 9S (never mind that she did), it doesn't change what she did. Instead, all she can do is ball her hand tighter.] But you should understand now why I don't deserve your admiration.